Id like Teaschip though, you would explain what happens to me?
Ive been raised in a family where both mom and dad abandoned the faith they grew up with (respectively Anglican and Catholic) at the time they started ´thinking´. So all I ever saw of religion was on mondaymorning at primary school where we said prayers because it was compulsory. And at my neighbours who were firm Protestants, and where I used to avoid dinner at sunday because they were speaking for an hour out of some book of which I did not understand a word. That has been my last encounter with religion really.
I am nearly 21 now, have read the Bible and half way through Kuran, but I did not see the light. I have questioned what a possible god could be like according to these books, and decided it to be too difficult to believe in such a power, because it doesnt fit my ideas of how the world is supposed to work and because I think both books contain too much violence towards dissident thoughts, that I do not wish to be part of it. So I made a choice for myself not to be religious.
However, I support a few charity cases, I avoid to lie and if I do its the occassional white lie, I am faithful to those I love in both friendship and my relationship, I respect my parents, I do not kill or steel, I never bullied someone at school, I do not lay eyes on anothers property nor am ý jealous or greedy, I stand up for elderly or pregnant persons in the bus, I am there for friends in need and I have no racist affiliations. Practically, I live by the book. I have my flaws yes (to name just 2 religious-related: I dont think homosexuality is something disrespectful and I dont believe in no sex before marriage), but overall, I think I am a good human being. Actually, one that would deserve to have a place in heaven. Is it my fault then, that I cannot see the signs?
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I dont know about the bible, ý just add this because I never forgot these words after I read them for the first time:
According to Quran it is not my fault, apparantly Allah planned it all and Im doomed from the day I was born:
Surah 2 - Al-Baqarah The heifer
7. Allah hath set a seal on their hearts and on their hearing, and on their eyes is a veil; great is the penalty they (incur).
As for people who say they believe but dont really:
Same surah, section 2,
10: In their hearts is a disease; and Allah has increased their disease
(I took this from Abdullah Yusuf Ali, an english quran translation written for the Muslims who dont have arabic as their native language. )
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