Now listen I know this is alot of text and I dont expect it to be translated very quick. or maybe at all. But I really really hope someone could do this favour for me and translate it into turkish. I would be forever grateful and if theres something i could do for u i would gladly do it. becuz this means alot to me. thanks!!

"to the only guy ive ever loved"

it really was a strange love. crazy love. stupid love.

but for me it was 100% love. not a game. not an imagination.

i couldnt see u standing infront of me. i couldnt feel u with my hands.

but i could feel u in my heart. through my whole body. it was like being drunk,

of happiness. it was real enough for me. i even wrote about u in my diary, the place

where i write down my most private stuff. if everyone says im crazy, then let me be

forever crazy in love with u.

did we made the right choices?
no we didnt. we both made the worste
choices we could make. year after year of fighting.
making each other sad. playing with each others
feelings. hurting each other in many ways.
to never meet each other was the biggest mistake and
worste choice of all. it was mostly my fault.
but u are not completely innocent about it either.
the problem is that we always blamed each other.
there was a time when we were so happy and hopeful
about each other. talking about our future plans
and what we wanted to do together. it was not a game
for me. i really wanted it, from the deepest part
of my heart. i was so much in love with u, every day
and every night all i could think about was u.
my heart was so filled with love for u. and i was
saying to myself and to everyone else that i will
never let this guy go. but deep inside of me i knew
that one day u would hurt me very bad. i always
felt insecure about u. i knew that something was
wrong. something inside me was telling me to be
careful about trusting u. but i ignored it.
until the day u really broke my heart for the first time.
i remember it like it was yesterday. after that,
things was never the same between us again.
so much trust issues and jealousy started.
so heavy fights and insults.

there is always one question that forever will stay in
my mind. "what wouldve happened if i had come to u?"
we will never know.

imagine u and me looking into each others eyes
for the first time, face to face. holding each others hands.
touching each other. feeling each other. our hearts
close to each other. the first hug. the first kiss.
laughing together. sitting down and talking about
how stupid we were to wait so long to finally meet.
fall asleep together. waking up together.
and start a new life together, forgetting about
the bad past. understanding that we are not perfect
people and we both betrayed each other in different
ways. but life is short and forgiving is important.

these things will always stay in a part of my head.
"what if...."

maybe we were not perfect for each other.
but i guess we really tried. maybe not enough.
but its too late now. sometimes our love feels
like it was just a lie, a stupid fairytale.
did u loved me? ask yourself and think about it.
we been through alot of things, hard times, happy times.
we seperated a million times for a million of reasons.
but we always found our way back to each other.
this time it wont happen again. i feel it.
this really is the end. we will find someone else
to love and to make a family with.
let us both be happy. and let us be happy for each
others sake. maybe we can follow each other in some
way through the years. in a friendly way. from a distance.
you will see what happens to me in the future.
and i will see what happens to u.

and maybe some day, after many many years.
when we both have families. we will say a greeting
to each other. maybe we even would meet. in a
respectful way. why? becuz we spent so many years
apart. becuz u were my first love. becuz it ended
so bad. becuz we deserved it. there are many reasons.
destiny is the only thing i trust in.
destiny will decide.

to the only guy ive ever loved

Sevdiğim tek erkeğe/adama

it really was a strange love. crazy love. stupid love.

but for me it was 100% love. not a game. not an imagination.

Gerçektende tuhaf bir aşktı. Çılgın ve aptalca.

Ama benim için %100 aşktı. Oyun değil, hayal değil.

i couldnt see u standing infront of me. i couldnt feel u with my hands.

but i could feel u in my heart. through my whole body. it was like being drunk,

of happiness.

Seni karşımda göremedim, ellerimle hissedemedim ama seni kalbimde ve tüm bedenimde hissedebiliyordum. Mutluluktan sarhoş olmak gibiydi.

did we made the right choices? no we didnt. we both made the worste
choices we could make.

Doğru tercih mi yaptık ? Hayır, yapmadık. Yapabileceğimiz en kötü tercihi yaptık. 

year after year of fighting. making each other sad. playing with each others
feelings. hurting each other in many ways. to never meet each other was the biggest mistake and worste choice of all.

Mücadeleyle geçen yıllardan sonra, birbirimizi üzüyor, birbirimizin duygularıyla oynuyor, birbirimizi incitiyoruz. Birbirimizle tanışmak hayatımızın en büyük hatası ve en kötü seçimi oldu.

it was mostly my fault. but u are not completely innocent about it either.
the problem is that we always blamed each other.

Daha çok benim hatamdı, ama sen de pek masum değilsin. Sorun; sürekli birbirimizi suçlamaktı.

there was a time when we were so happy and hopeful about each other. talking about our future plans and what we wanted to do together.

Mutlu ve umutlu olduğumuz zamanlar da oldu. Gelecek planlarımızdan ve birlikte yapmak istediklerimizden konuştuk. 

it was not a game for me. i really wanted it, from the deepest part
of my heart. i was so much in love with u, every day and every night all i could think about was u.

Benim için oyun değildi. Gerçekten  kalbimin en derininden istedim. Sana çok aşıktım, her gün her gece seni düşünüyordum.

my heart was so filled with love for u. and i was saying to myself and to everyone else that i will never let this guy go. but deep inside of me i knew
that one day u would hurt me very bad.

Kalbim aşkınla doluydu, kendime ve herkese bu adamın gitmesine asla müsade etmeyeceğim diyordum. Ancak, içten içe beni birgün çok inciteceğini biliyordum.

 i always felt insecure about u. i knew that something was wrong. something inside me was telling me to be careful about trusting u. but i ignored it.

Kendimi hiç güvende hissetmedim. Yanlış olduğunu biliyordum. İçimden bir ses sana olan güvenim hakkında dikkali olmamı söylüyordu, ancak bunu görmezden geldim.

until the day u really broke my heart for the first time. i remember it like it was yesterday. after that, things was never the same between us again.
so much trust issues and jealousy started. so heavy fights and insults.

Ta ki sen; kalbimi  ilk defa geçekten kırdığın o güne kadar. Dün gibi hatırlıyorum. Bundan sonra aramızdaki hiçbir şey eskisi gibi olmadı. Güven sorunları ve kıskançlık başladı ve tabi ağır hakaret ve büyük kavgalar.

If had mistakes by now, sorry. 

there is always one question that forever will stay in my mind. "what wouldve happened if i had come to u?" we will never know.

Bir soru, sonsuza kadar aklımda olacak. Eğer sana gelseydim ne olurdu ? Bunu asla bilemeyeceğiz.

imagine u and me looking into each others eyes for the first time, face to face. holding each others hands. touching each other.

Birbirimize ilk baktığımız zamanı hatırlıyorum. Yüz yüze, el ele bir birimize dokunduğumuz (zamanları)

feeling each other. our hearts close to each other. the first hug. the first kiss.
laughing together.

Birbirimizi hissetiğimiz, kalplerimizin yakınlaştığı. İlk sarılmamız. İlk öpüşmemiz, gülüşmelerimiz.

sitting down and talking about how stupid we were to wait so long to finally meet. fall asleep together. waking up together. and start a new life together, forgetting about the bad past.

Oturup, çok uzun süren bekleyişin ardından buluşmamızın ne kadar da aptalca olduğu hakkındaki konuşmalarımız. Birlikte uyanıp, yeni bir hayata başlamak ve geçmişi unutmak.

understanding that we are not perfect people and we both betrayed each other in different ways. but life is short and forgiving is important.

Mükemmel olmadığımızı ve birbirimize farklı şekillerde de olsa ihanet ettiğimizi biliyorum ama, hayat kısa ve önemli olan bağışlamak.

these things will always stay in a part of my head.
"what if...."

Bu hep aklımın bir köşesinde olacak. "Ya olsaydı ..?"

maybe we were not perfect for each other. but i guess we really tried. maybe not enough. but its too late now. 

Belki birbirimiz için mükemmel değildi, ancak gerçekten çok  yorulduk. Belki yeterli değil ama artık çok geç.

sometimes our love feels like it was just a lie, a stupid fairytale. did u loved me? ask yourself and think about it.

Bazen aşkımız yalanmış gibi geliyor, aptal bir perimasalı. Beni sevdin mi ? Bunu kendine sor ve düşün.

we been through alot of things, hard times, happy times. we seperated a million times for a million of reasons. but we always found our way back to each other.

Birlikte çok şey yaşadık. Zor zamanlarımız, mutlu zamanlarımız oldu. milyonlarca neden yüzünden milyonlarca defa ayrıldık ancak, her defasında birbirimize dönmenin bir yolunu bulduk.

this time it wont happen again. i feel it. this really is the end. we will find someone else to love and to make a family with.

Bu defa bu olmayacak. Bunu hissediyorum. Gerçekten bitti. Sevmek ve aile kurmak için başka birini bulacağız.

let us both be happy. and let us be happy for each others sake. maybe we can follow each other in some way through the years.

İkimizinde mutlu olmasına izin verelim. Birbirimizin hatrına bunu yapalım. Belki yıllarca birbirimizi bir şekilde takip edebiliriz.

in a friendly way. from a distance. you will see what happens to me in the future. and i will see what happens to u.

Dostça ve uzaktan. Gelecekte birbirimizin hayatında neler olduğunu bileceğiz.

and maybe some day, after many many years. when we both have families. we will say a greeting to each other. 

Belki yıllar sonra birgün ailelerimizle karşılaşacak ve birbirimizle selamlaşacağız.

maybe we even would meet. in a respectful way. why? becuz we spent so many years apart. 

Belki de dostça buluşacağız. Neden mi ? Çünkü birbirimizden ayrı çok uzun zaman geçirmiş olacağız.

 becuz u were my first love. becuz it ended so bad. becuz we deserved it. there are many reasons. destiny is the only thing i trust in. destiny will decide.

Çünkü sen ilk aşkımdın. Çünkü çok kötü bitti. Çünkü biz bunu hak ettik. Çok nedeni var. İnandığım tek şey kader. Kader buna karar verecek.

If i have, Im sorry for my mistakes.

thanks harpoon ur an angel

Your are welcome.