Hiya my turkish is still work in progress ive got a good grasp of it but not enough to try and communicate what i want. even though he can speak very good english may he will see my point clearly if its translated to turkish. thank you to anyone that gives it the time of day would really appreciate a hand with this ...

One rule for me and another for you. why do i feel that your not there for me anymore, am i only there for when it suits you, when you want what you want, when you need to satisfy yourself  ? even when i want five minutes of your time im not given it and i never underrstand why as i am prepared to give you every minute of mine. even when i state you cant have contact with me, you laughed. i remember when u was in the army you would call me as i could´t you. you always would never without fail, but now i can call you freely, you dont need me anymore ? now you have your freedom ? it makes me wonder why and i dont like it. when you got your freedom from the army you said i could call you whenever i like, now i do, you tell me im wrong for it, i should accept it and end the call. i dont undertstand what i can do, i contuinally make sacrafices, try to please you but you still dont try and please me by giving me a moment out of your busy life ? i find it hard to accept im working and going to college and your not at the moment but yet your still busy. i dont want to think about this anymore. im hoping things will change because i cant continue feeling like i do everytime you say the words that your to busy, or your doing something else thats obviosuly alot more important than speaking to your fiancee of almost three years. foolish really.