Please help me to translate to Turkish a letter I have written my boyfriend in English. It´s long and it´s sad....here goes....

Ali, 

when you are ready to talk i have something to explain. 

i know what i did in may was really bad, after this event, things were never the same for us. i am still sad. 

you can´t love me, you have to leave me because im a bad person, i deserve to be alone. these days you act so cold, i dont blame you for anything. but i can´t carry on like this, i hate calling you on the phone because you are usually angry or busy. i look back at the year we had together and i wish it had been different.  

i don´t blame you for breaking promises and letting me down, i think its better for both of us to forget everything. i tried to be close to you, but i feel so unimportant, you couldn´t be there for me when i was unhappy or confused, you haven´t asked me about the doctor appointment. 

its clear to see there is nothing special left between us. when i came to see you and your friend picked me up from the otogar, you just sat there, you didn´t look happy to see me, you keep breaking my heart and i keep coming back. i know you were with someone else, you will never admit it, but i dont blame you, i deserve it. 

but today i want you to be honest, its all i need to move on.