I would aprreciate the English translation of this. Thanks in advance.


Yalandi...

Yasanan hersey yalandi.Teninin tenimde erimesi,sesinin sesimle
bütünlesmesi.
Yasananlar,geri gelmeyecek olan hatiralar hiç yasanmamis sayildi.
Zordu seni bu sekilde sevmek. Zordu sen baska bir bedende daha
varolurken seni yalniz odamda beklemek. Belki diyorum,belki de hata
bendeydi, Gizlice sevmeliydim seni,sana olan hayranligimi içimde
yasamaliydim. Seni düsünürken baska bir ülkenin iklimindeydim. Sen
gelince aklima silerdim hayatimdaki herseyi ve ben hayatimi seninle
bastan yazardim. O kadar açtim ki sana,hiçbir zaman doyamayacagim
sanardim. Sonra;sonra sen herseyi hiçe saydin. Birgün geri geleceksin.
Ben unutup herseyi bütün benliginle seni çiktigin kapidan tekrar içeri
alacagim. Tekrar bütünlesecegim seninle. Ta ki sen beni bir kez daha
birakip gidene kadar. Insanlar deliymisim gibi bakiyorlar bana.
Bilmiyorlar ki benim yarim eksik,bilmiyorlar ki benligim çok uzaklarda
ve bilmiyorlar ki sen çok uzakta bense burda...

It was a lie...
Every thing that had been lived was a lie. The melting of your skin in mine, the uniting of your voice with mine.
What had been lived, the memories that won't come back, were considered as not lived.
It was hard to love you that way. It was hard to wait for you in my empty room when you obtained(?) in another body.
Maybe, I'm saying, maybe the mistake was mine, I should have loved you secretly, I should have kept my admiration for you inside me.
When I was thinking about you I was in another country's climate. When you came I would erase everything from my life and write my life all over again with you.
I had been so hungry, that I used to think that I would never satiate from you.
Then, then you disregarded everything.
One day you'll come back.
I will forget everything and I'll receive you back from the same door you exited. I will be united with you again.
Until you'll leave me again and go away.
People are looking at me as if I'm crazy.
They don't know that my half is missing, they don't know that my own self (personality) is far away and they don't know that you're so far away but I am here...