Hi Friend, I really need to write letter to my turk bf before I leave. it's quite long letter but would be nice if you guy can help before Monday. coz I will leave on Tuesday.

What you said to me today when we sit in the train to go back Amsterdam. I act like children!! Maybe you right, But what happen in bar last night when I saw a girl start talked to you and you respond her. I was show out my emotions to you, you was mad at me and you called my feeling as “ Anger ”
It’s too hurt for me that you not even think why I act like that…It’s not anger but it’s my feeling to you. If you call Love and Caring as Anger. This mean I should love you and care you less than. Then I wouldn’t care whatever you do or happen in front of my face.
Everybody have good part and bad part. And what you saw last night it’s my bad part.
I am normal quite jealous. And I cant change myself to please you, bcz this is ME!!

You said if you go out to drink with other girl. I should trust you, bcz you and her just friend.
I want to trust you But let me remind you. Before you and me also hang-out as friend right? And what is change our relationship.. It’s not because we are get closer and more feeling to eachother??

Everyday thing can happen without your expect. Same as it happen to US!! when I am far from you only time and distances will prove you and me.

You made me felt that,I care about you more than you care me. WHY?? I am not good enough or deserve to get your feeling?? 1 year in our relationship you use to said you love me only 2 time. I don’t want to hear it often but I want to know that you MEAN it.

Today I still feel hurt but I don’t want to show it out in front your face, bcz it our last day.
I want to make you happy. I cried a lot when I wrote letter to you. But I promise myself this will be last time that I let LOVE make me down.

When I am far from you. It’s only time and distances will prove you and me. I want you to be honest with me. If you change just tell me. I will accept everything you say. You can fool me but you cant fool yourself. I don’t want to come back to you and found out that you get someone else.

** We still hurt not because love is gone, but because LOVE still with us **