Thank you lovely people!!!

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Hello my dear,
I think that you're staring to get confused too by now, It's as you said: Two different countries, two different lives, how do they come together? Believe me that I'm thinking about these things so much and while thinking my fears are increasing. Because each passing day I miss you more and want to be with you more. Sometimes I'm letting matters take their natural course and living only my love. But life is not as easy as we think. We have so many obstacles. That's why we shouldn't be entangled too much. Even if we marry one day in the future, I'm not even sure that I want to come to London. I'm scared, I'm scared of being unhappy. Because of that I'm scared to fall madly in love with you. Please don't be angry with me. As days pass, I miss you more, want you more and can't obstruct myself. But a voice in me is saying that I'm doing wrong. I'm afraid...

Once again Ayla, thank you very much. I just wish it was what i wanted to hear . Why is life so harsh at times?