We can get somewhere to live outside Bodrum, it would be cheaper..darling one day you are very positive and sure the next you change your mind.Why can you not use the loan money to first make sure we are comfortable with accomodation etc. and just carry on with your regular job for a while and maybe get a better paying one with longer hours, as before. Then if you feel later on we can open a business then we can do so..Please think carefully as I think maybe your priorities are a litle mixed up