I opened my first account in 2004 after having met for real with my (at that time 'internet-) love Kadir. (you can still find it somewhere ). I lost the password and created this one and have been on ever since.

I finished off all the grammar lessons here, I even organized them in word, printed and studied them when I had spare time at school, or in the bus. Just by reading the forum I would pick up on info about living in Turkey and after 2 years, I ended up there, which is now a year ago. The reason to be here as being learning the language, is no longer my main reason.

I am here, to prove all those who hate all Kurdish people WRONG.

I am here, to prove all those who think relationships between 'young naive girls' (yep was 16 and had no idea what I was dealing with!) and Türkiyeli cant work, WRONG.

I am here, to share what I learnt so far and learn from what others know.

I am here, because I hope one day the debates on politics and religion will be allowed

I am here, because in my deepest and most secret held ambitions, one day I hope to teach in Turkey or fill a diplomatic position. Turkey has so many downsides but as least as much opportunities and capacities..

I have been accused, many many times, of being an arrogant dinsiz, and a supporter of PKK. I have, many times, thought of leaving the website. Its just internet, right?

Some members, some discussions, made me feel desperate. I felt like giving my opinions about some 'matters' in Turkey, was like talking to deaf man's ears. It made my blood boil when Youtube got closed down, it pisses me off to see people promote haşema, and I wondered 'Do I wanna be part of that country? Do I want to work so hard, as a woman, and maybe get nothing back in return? Am I an idiot to put effort in talking to deaf mens ears?' Well maybe I am, and I love it!!

I stayed here, for leaving is giving them what they want.
I stayed here, because I hope my thoughts can make a change.


But most of all..

I am not very generous with the word 'friend', but for what it matters, its the kind of people here, that have made me stay. Some are no longer active members (Slavica, Lyndie, Elisa), some keep coming less (Daydreamer, Aslan), and some here just frequently (Aenigma, Catwoman). They are just a few among people that I enjoy to talk with, enjoy to read posts from. I'm happy to have met them, and since Im not generous with the word 'friend', its about time I see you all for some rakı and meze, and become one

Very well written Deli_k!

They built it....so I came