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keep saying IF because I have applied several places for a loan ..a grant..to even borrow the money, one has said they have to process my application and will let me know by the 20th February . it doesnt look good though..I am desperately holding on to the hope they will say yes because I love you so much and really want to be with you, it is such a shame that money has to play an important part in this because love is unconditional, I have loved you in this past 6 months with everything I have with my heart and soul.
If you can just give me one more week to the 20th when I should get the answer from them, the problem they say is my age becasue I cant pay it back fast enough but they are trying for me. If they wont give it to me I will be devastated, heartbroken. I do not really understand why you have to break off all ties with me if you go? but all I ask is IF you go and IF it should not work out and you end up leaving her and going back to turkey, remember me and THEN get in touch with me please and I hope IF you have to go you will anyway from time to time remember me with love.
So I will give you the answer on the 20th if it is to be that we have to say goodbye then please come on MSN so we can do it with love.
Meanwhile I pray every day a miracle will happen and I can get the money.
I love you and will love you forever.
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