darling I notice you are not certain anymore about Germany so I hope this means we have more time to try to find the money, we have as you say something magical and too great to just let go.So we must come up with an idea if all else does fail. What if we rent the room from your sister for a few weeks and pay her for food could we then save enough for our own place?
or What if I go to London work my old job and come over every weekend to be with you...only until..we get enough money the air is cheap in the spring and summer so I could do that. I know you are thinking no it is not a good idea but it would only be hopefully for a few months until I could be there all the time and at least we would see oen another every week.

Anyway these are 2/ suggestions that might work if the loan does not come through. If you have better ideas lets discuss them. I love you very much