Would someone please translate this letter for me .

Thanks in advance ..

merhaba sevgilim

biliyorum bu mail den hicbirsey anlamayacak hatta sasiracaksin ama hislerimi birkez de turkce olarak yazmak istedim.

bu o kadar garip bir duygu ki yani sevdigin insanin senin dilini bilmemesi ve onun dilinden hislerini soylemek...Ama sunu anladimki insan ask icin , sevdigi icin herseyi yapabiliyor. Biliyosun ben seninle ingilizce konusarak da anlasabiliyorum. Hayatta mutlu olmak disinda hicbirsey istemedim kendim icin. ve suan senden az da olsa turkce konusabilmeni istiyorsam bu kendim icin degil ailem icin. cunku onlar bu konuda belli etmeselerde tedirginler. Her ikimizde biliyoruzki bu mesafeden bir insani tanimak cok zor.Seni cok istiyorum, seninle beraber olmayi ve bir hayati paylasmayi cok istiyorum. Hayatta hic kimseyi seni sevdigim kadar sevmedim. Biliyorum baskalari icin sacma boyle bir iliski ama ben seni cok seviyorum.

Su dunyada en cok seni kaybetmekten korkarým cunku seni olesiye seviyorum sevgilim..

Umarim sana karsi hissettiklerimi anlarsin ve beni terk etmezsin , aksi taktirde buna dayanamam , sensiz olmaya dayanamam..

seni cok seviyorum canim sevgilim.....

Hi my darling,

I know that you won`t understand a bit of this mail and you will be even surprised but I wanted to express my feelings in turkish just one time.
Its such a strange feeling when you love somebody who doesnt know your own language and you are explaining what you feel in his language..But i realised that one can do everything for the person he loves.You know that I can get along with you while speaking English too.I dont want anything else in life except to be happy.And know if I am asking you if you can be able to speak a little bit turkish is not for me but for my family.Because,they are anxious about this issue no matter they dont show it.Both of us know that from such a distance its hard to know somebody.I want you very much,I want to be with you and spend my life with you.I have never loved somebody in my life the way I am loving you.I know that other people would say its a stupid relationship but I love you.
The worst thing I fear in this life is losing you because i am desperately loving you my darling..
I hope you understand my feeling toward you and you dont leave me..otherwise I wont resist..I cant resist without you
I love you so much my darling.

Many thankxs Derya