My days are empty,

My nights are filled with darkness,

I became depressed..Nothing has any meaning anymore .

Im breathing but I am not living.

So many thoughts in my mind. 

I do not want to be without you. I do not know how to be without you.

The way you left was the worst thing you did. No goodbye...You did not even call me.

I am left with one Email from you. I read it again and again and it still does not make any sense . There is no explanation or reason as to why you left . This is cowardly.

Your final words offered me no comfort. They just made me worry about you.

Knowing that you are sad but not knowing where you are is terrible.

I just needed one person to believe in, I thought it was you. 

Do the past four years , count for nothing?

Do the times we shared mean nothing?

Why waste so many years if it was going to end like this?

You make me suffer and  still you do not end my misery.

Do you think I will be okay without you?

Do you think life will continue as normal?

Maybe for you ,but not for me...

When I told you, you are my reason for living I meant it.

Living like this is torture.

You said you found a new job. Do you think this would have changed anything?

Or was I just an opportunity and when a better opportunity came along I was no longer needed.

Forgive me for feeling like this but I am sad I do not know what to think or feel anymore.

I´m really sorry but this is very morbid.. anyone reading this could get depressed- I hope not! Life is good. My first impression is someone is really trying or faking it??

 my try as learner

Aren´t we all just a fake?

It is depressing to read those lines. However, we all get depressed and may be many of us  had smilar feelings time to time. Life is not always good. Life can be so cruel sometimes. I think we get tested in life, some get tested by pain of love, some by losses of our loved ones etc...

I don´t know about somebody but this world is fake... Yalan Dünya !

The deeper we fall in love, the more pain we experience when it turns sour, and it is very hard for people to move forward with their lives. People grasp a sliver of hope that words might change someone. Unfortunately this site is full of broken relationships. I am sure you are strong enough to eventually have positive thoughts again Britturk. Life is about living, and if he has chosen to ignore you, he may never tell you the reason. If you are healthy, be happy!

thanks guys