im gonna tell u the truth. i want to go to ömer but its so hard for me becuz my dad keep a close eye on me. its a long story and i dont wanna tell everything so i just keep it short to u.
of course ömer is upset and angry about this. i would be too. i dont want to waste his time.
i respect him so much. i want him to be happy. even if its not with me.
he has a life. i dont want to take anything away from him. he deserves many good things.
even if he has hurt me very much many times, i will never think he is a bad person. he is only human. its a special situation between me and him. if we were together in real, if we had met for the first time in real, if we lived in the same country. it would never be like this.
i really adore him. i have asked him to come here. he says he will come. but it feels like
he will not come. i dont know. he has my adress to my house. i said to him, if u come here, u know where i live. we cant talk like this anymore. we must let each other be free.
if he finds a new girl instead. i will respect that. but i dont ever want to know or see it.
becuz it would completly break my heart. i just want him to come here.
actually im a much better person and more calm in real life.
i dont want to talk on whatsapp anymore. becuz we get stuck there. and probably he has told u about my jealousy. i dont want to be like that anymore. im a very peaceful person
and i want to stay like that. if he come here, everything will be fine. i would not say no to him. pls cant u try to convince him about this. he listens to me but i think he is very insecure.
when I was gone from whatsapp for one week. i missed u and ömer so much.
both of u has become very special to me. i dont know u very much, becuz we never talked
until 2013. but i have talked with ömer since 2008.
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