I agree with everyone else pretty much..

This is a very dangerous situation, because you are so young, you don't fluently know the language, and there are a lot of evil people out there who would try to take advantage of that.
I can honestly understand your frustrations though. Good things will come to you. It may sound condescending, but I say this from experience: patience is truly a virtue. Please please take care of yourself, and I honestly wish the best for you.

- Eva ♥

thanks for the comments!

it is very helpful to hear everyone's advice!