no way..Rysiek instead.letter to mother
"you know mum I imagined myself there is no God,there is no God....,no..."
Mum, I´m writing a poem for you.
Maybe the last one, first one for sure
It´s a deep and dark night
I´m lying in my bed and she´s lying next to me
Breathing so peacefully.
I can hear some kind of music, no, it´s just some noise in my head
I´m sitting here just drowning, drowning in my tears
´Cause I´m sad ´cause I´m all alone
I´m numbed by fear
Loneliness is such an awful fright
It overwhelms me, it transcends me
You know, Mum, I imagined there is no God, there is no..no..
Th only calm place is my home
Where you are and I am gone
Where I think I won´t return evermore
Mum, I love you, I love you
I thought you hurt me
But it´s me who hurt you
I wish I had realised it earlier
I had understood it
Understood it yeah...
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That brings back memories. I remember when I learnt about Rysiek´s death when I went to Jarocin Festival (kind of Polish Woodstock) in secondary school, having lied to my parents about staying at a friend´s. Such a long time ago...
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