Dear Yilmaz,I felt it was the right time to write this to you now. Many years have passed and feel returning these photographs is  the right thing to do. I´m sure some of them will be very precious to your father.

 The last 5 years have not been easy. I have lived with a heavy heart ever since, the day I last saw you. Even now I do not know the truth, I guess I never will. I wish only you had not lied to me. I believed you when you told me your marriage was over and your word was enough for me.

I have given up trying to make sense of the situation. The more I think about it the more painful it is. I guess it does not matter anymore. 

I do not know how we got to this situation. 

God blessed us with a love that was so powerful, yet we could not be together. 

This is the biggest pain I will ever endure. Its not just  pain it´s suffering.

I did not forget you, not one day passes without thinking of you. I am praying to be reunited with you in the next life.

Last year I returned to Antakya, I visited Serinyol. I just wanted to feel close to you. 

One day I was in a taxi and we drove past your home. Your father was outside of your home, I looked at him and began to weep like a baby. I wanted to get out of the car and go and talk to him but I knew if I did I would be condemned by your family. 

You are so much like your father. It was really emotional seeing him. Infact even small things that remind me of you reduce me to tears. If a song comes on the radio that reminds me of you I can not stop myself from crying.

It´s hard to live like this. I feel like I am grieving for you. 

You were taken away from me. There is so much unfinished business between us. I hope one day we will be reunited and find peace with each other.

Forever and always in my thoughts.

Dear Yilmaz,I felt it was the right time to write this to you now. Many years have passed and feel returning these photographs is  the right thing to do. I´m sure some of them will be very precious to your father.

Sevgili Yılmaz,

Sana şimdi yazmanın doğru bir zaman olduğunu hissettim. Uzun zaman geçti ve bu fotoğrafları iade etmenin daha doğru olduğunu düşündüm. Eminim ki; bazıları baban için çok değerli olacaktır. 

The last 5 years have not been easy. I have lived with a heavy heart ever since, the day I last saw you. Even now I do not know the truth, I guess I never will. I wish only you had not lied to me. I believed you when you told me your marriage was over and your word was enough for me.

Geçen 5 yıl kolay değildi. Seni en son gördüğüm günden beri, ağır bir kalple yaşadım. Şimdi bile gerçeği bilmiyorum, sanırım asla öğrenemeyeceğim. Keşke bana yalan söylememiş olsaydın. Bana evliliğinin bittiğini söylediğinde, sana inandım ve sözün benim için yeterliydi.

I have given up trying to make sense of the situation. The more I think about it the more painful it is. I guess it does not matter anymore. 

I do not know how we got to this situation. 

Durumu anlamaya çalışmaktan vazgeçtim. Sürekli bunu düşünmek çok acı verici. Sanırım artık bir önemi yok. Bu duruma nasıl geldiğimizi bilmiyorum.

God blessed us with a love that was so powerful, yet we could not be together. 

This is the biggest pain I will ever endure. Its not just  pain it´s suffering.

Tanrının kutsadığı en güçlü sevgiydi, ancak beraber olamıyorduk. Bu katlanacağım en büyük acı. Sadece acı değil, ızdırap veriyor. 

I did not forget you, not one day passes without thinking of you. I am praying to be reunited with you in the next life.

Seni düşünmediğim bir gün geçmiyor ve seni unutmadım. Sonraki hayatta sana kavuşmak için dua ediyorum. 

Last year I returned to Antakya, I visited Serinyol. I just wanted to feel close to you. 

One day I was in a taxi and we drove past your home. Your father was outside of your home, I looked at him and began to weep like a baby. I wanted to get out of the car and go and talk to him but I knew if I did I would be condemned by your family. 

Geçen yıl Antakya’ya döndüm ve Serinyol’u ziyaret ettim.Sadece kendimi sana yakın hissetmek istedim. Bir gün taksideydim ve evinin önünden geçtim. Baban evin dışındaydı. Ona baktım ve bebek gibi ağlamaya başladım. Arabadan çıkıp onunla konuşmak istedim, ancak biliyordum ki, bunu yaparsam aileni utandırabilirdim. 

You are so much like your father. It was really emotional seeing him. Infact even small things that remind me of you reduce me to tears. If a song comes on the radio that reminds me of you I can not stop myself from crying.

Babana çok benziyorsun. Onu görmek çok dokunaklıydı. Aslına bakarsan, seni hatırlatan küçük şeyler gözyaşlarımı azaltıyor. Radyoda dinlediğim şarkılar seni hatırlatıyor ve kendimi ağlamaktan alamıyorum.

It´s hard to live like this. I feel like I am grieving for you. 

Böyle yaşamak çok zor. Kendimi senin için yas tutuyormuş gibi hissediyorum. 

You were taken away from me. There is so much unfinished business between us.

I hope one day we will be reunited and find peace with each other.

Forever and always in my thoughts.

Benden çok uzaktaydın.  Aramızda bitmemiş işler var.  Birgün birikte olup huzur bulacağımızı umuyorum. Her zaman ve sonsuza kadar düşüncelerimdesin.