You are going to leave for your holiday in one of these days. (Or maybe you already left.) If I say I wish you a very happy and nice and useful and great holiday, would you believe this wish comes from deep in my heart?

I do wish you spend great and enjoyable days during your holiday and that, you feel, after returning home, you are a master of Turkish. I really wish this.



(25th July, Wed)

Çok teşekkürler for this nice hopes!

I went to holiday and came back.

I hope you enjoy your holidays too!

I must be more cruel to myself, feel deeply regret and great pain, and suffer days and nights until I have enough of suffering, until I pay for my sin, until I free myself in conscience.

Happy is one who can willingly suffer!

There are tons of people, -you do know this-, who would simply laugh at and just ignore the same or similar sin that they commit as if they didn't commit any sin, as if nothing happened, going on living their usual lifes. Why can I not simply act and behave and go on living my usual life like they would do? Why have I been still feeling shame of myself and suffering a lot?

Because it is ME, NOT even YOU, who actually should NOT forget! And I haven't forgotten.

The part of someone that aches is their whole universe.
When a part of someone aches, there universe is there.

That two word phrase is the best thing I read and got in the last few of weeks. For some reason I am very very happy today. And once again I am grateful to you so much.

Thank you.

Good luck with your new job tomorrow!

Be nice with the boss, be fast in your work (with not looking in dictionary too much )and don't even think to give up after first difficulties!

And, of course, don't spend too much time on TC, at least till you get the reputation of a good worker