Good luck with your new job tomorrow!

Be nice with the boss, be fast in your work (with not looking in dictionary too much )and don't even think to give up after first difficulties!

And, of course, don't spend too much time on TC, at least till you get the reputation of a good worker

From today on I am going to try not to suffer and thus ruin my life anymore. I have taken a very good step into the business that I have wished to take in for a long time, and I want to be successful in my job. For this, I have to study and work hard, especially for the first month.

The probability or thought that you will always remember and mention me as "a bastard/asshole/etc." whenever you come across or remember or read or talk about the similar baddness that I did to you, has made me very sorry and caused me to suffer a lot. Such probabilty or thought will of course keep making me so sorry, not so much as before though. Whether or not I have had enough of suffering and regretting, is now totally up to whether you believe me or not; I won't bother trying to tell or show you any more.

You, too, do know that there are tons of people who do and would do such badness to or commit such sin against other people every day, feeling no regret, on the contrary feeling proud of what they do, without suffering or thinking what they do is a crime/sin/mistake/etc. Still you know that they continue to live their normal lives as if they didn't do such bad badness to someone. It is true that I share the same crime/sin/mistake with such people; nevertheless I believe that I am not one of them. I haven't acted and lived like they do; I suffered a lot, felt regret a lot, felt pain a lot, felt twinge of conscience a lot; whereas I could have acted and continued to live like they do. I hope you will take this point into consideration.

I have nothing to do about my crime/sin/mistake, for "what is done can't be undone". I thought I could win back your trust and respect and friendship again, but I understood that you haven't and probably won't let me to do that. So I have given up. But, despite all, I have always thought and will always think you have and carry such a BIG HEART.

My last word: I DO APOLOGIZE TO YOU.

Sorry Ciko

Let us not spoil, at least, this thread.