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Very sweet and thank you for your kind and direct offer... as you can see from my yesterday´s translation, I do have a BIG ISSUE with trust at the moment. Where are all the nice Turkish guys gone? Why it all starts so beautiful... and ends up so sad! He was just in for the money and decieved me for 8 months!!! Completely abused my love, my trust, my generosity, my understanding... it´s very humiliating, really....
at least you find out what he wanted from you in the first place. Up to this day, i still don´t know what my ex bf wanted from me. I don´t have money, I can´t go to Turkey, and he can´t have sex with me as well. 2 years of my life, he wasted really. Made me believe that i was the only girl he loved, only to find out, that he was with another girl, who can give him all the things he needed, that i couldn´t. I told him that if he as somebody else new, just tell me, and i will leave him alone, because i understood we were in a ldr. But he never did say anything to me, even told me, he would come here for me. Anyway, at least, me and the other girl had already spoken to each other, and although it seems she is now moving on (quite fast, i must say) i´m still feeling a bit devasted of all the things that has happened this past month, up to now. still trying to recover. 
If only i knew what reason he wanted me in the first place, or if i knew he only used me for something, maybe it would have been easy for me to move on as well. I still don´t understand anything.
Edited (2/16/2009) by justinetime
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