hehe... im laughing again mehmet... napacaz boyle ha?? hihi

hehe... wow.. turkish is great man... wow!

bn sadece ing'ce biliom.. he... bide biraz turkce... ne almacasi ha.. guldurme bni hehe

hehe again typical for u to reply to this thread... as hihi

why not? its just part of my personality...

deli mi ediyom adami ha?? hehe

well... i had KINA put on my hair but now that its finally worn off im getting the top layer blonde... hehe... but it will still be brown of course...hehe..it just needs some life added to it hihi

what does that meannn???? i think if i knew the first bit i would undertand the rest.. .

that was a very beautiful thing to say.. i hope u dont mind if i... steal it hihihi

all u have to do, is be very strong..
the day i left my bf in trabzon airport after our beautiful holiday in my village... omg... it was one of the hardest things if not, the hardest thing i have ever had to do in my whole life. that last split second, where my hand touched his for the last time until the next time i see him. actually having him in my arms a few moments before,and at last being alone. yet again, leaving turkey behind me. and walking through those gates by myself... away from everything i loved and desired for.
but now i know, always thinking like this, just makes one feel so much worse... and it doesnt get one anywhere, apart from in a terrible state where u just want to forget everything, even life.
feeling like this, actually caused my bf to try and commit suicide on sevral occassions. he always talked about killing himslef because he didnt want to carry on without me, he told me how he used to walk to school, and see the cars speeding accross the road next to him, and what would happen if he just jumped in front of one. and then there were the times where all i could do was watch himslit his arms on the webcam because he said that he loved me so much, would do anything and everything for me, and didnt want to carry on now that i had left him. and then there was the overdose... yeah... and even though deep down, i knew that he was only doing all of these things because of how much he cared about me, there became a point where i just thought, "omg, what if somthing ever went wrong? would he just want to kill hiself? do i always have tolive in fear of what he might doif i ever stopped loving him?" and thats when i made him promise to me that he would never do anything like this again. and i too know, that suicide is not the answer. im sure god didnt give us the gift of life so we could kill ourselves. its definitely not an option one should consider. and i made my bf realise this. i told him that we have to be patient, belive in ourselves and have trust in god and we will then have whatever we desire. and although living without him is hard, i understand that at the moment there is nothing i can do, apart from what has been forementioned...