I used to smoke too. I was a chain smoker. It all started in the university. I was enjoying the freedom of being at the helm of my own life in a different city. My father was about my age then. He had no health problems. No one got burned out of smoking. It was just the cigarette burning one after another. Entrance was free, friends kept offering until they thought I became a freeloader who needs to pay for his own cigarettes. My mind was busy then. Perils of smoking were so low on my list, I did not give that any thought. Years followed one another. I became a regular smoker with firm preferences about the brand I smoke, the time I start smoking and the thing that I drank with it. Cigarette seemed to give me peace of mind and concentration when I was in need of a boost in my cognitive skills. It acted as a painkiller and a tranquilizer.
Then one day in February 2001, I decided to quit never to smoke again which I did. I dumped everything smoking gave me and regained my lung capacity. As a mild asthma sufferer, I would say that was one of the best decisions I have ever made. That was also the hardest decision with consequences so hard to endure. Years after quitting, I was still smoking in my dreams. I just did not light that single cigarette which saved me from relapsing to the smoking habit.
Now I ask myself this question: why would someone smoke knowing its hazards? I think many people (including myself) have tons of mild psychological disorders. These are so mild, we don´t recognize them easily. With many people around us suffering from similar problems, we sleep on those problems and resort to smoking and/or drinking for an easy cure. Smoking is the aspirin of temperament problems. The bad feeling goes away but the suffering remains. When you don´t smoke, you become more aware of your condition and seek help.
There is so much to say about the psychological, sociological and economic aspects of smoking. Like anything related to humans, it is so complicated. It is the tell-tale sign of a very serious social dysfunction.
Edited (3/3/2012) by vineyards
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