seni hayatimin sonu kader sevecegim içimde gizledigim gizli yaramsin suanda bitik durumdayim hayatim bom bok gibi.. yüzüm yok sana bakmaya

this is really important, thanks for your help

 I will keep on loving you until the end of my life.  You are my hidden scar that I am hiding.  I feel exhausted / drained / out of energy now.  My life is like sh..t.  I don´t have the courage / can´t dare to look at your face.