Thanx to everyone who replied to the thread, including those who call themselves jokers(!) and who are more sensitive.

To handsome: Dont worry, I dont read minds remotely, and as I said it happens when it is needed, out of my control.

To jokers(!) I dont have to prove anything to those jokers. Only if u were here with me when I get so angry with u and u would see what would happen to u. Sorry, when I'm angry I harm people unintentionally, just too much energy that I cannot control.I know, still u dont believe, but I dont care.

To Aenigma: Your post is just too simple for me. I can distinguish between what is real and what is not. I never had any of these symptoms u told. Those "wake up" dreams, never.. And I'm aware of all the miracles on earth, more than most of people I believe. But the earth is not only what u see. The difference between u and me is that I can see both and appreciate both. I hear voices talking to me when I am awake and I've already seen many psychiatrists. But all they I am "sane" enough. You have got the type of character who wants to say something against everything that contradicts with what u believe. U like playing "know-it-all". But indeed, u r like a little girl, scared, trying to defend herself all the time. U are so fragile. and u try to hide this by talking against everything.

To Sui: Thanx for being the most sensible person to reply in my thread.

To everyone: I wont be around for a long time. I dont know how long it will take. Maybe I'll never be here again.

To Catwoman: I feel out of this place now. Delete my account.

Dont make me talk more. I already modified my earlier post. Anger is not fear, it is a step, an exam that I have to pass on this way. If I were a person of "fear" I'd have been dead now. I dont need anybody's acceptence. I have enough ppl who accept me the way I am.Plz Dont write more or I will go more. I'm leaving the site without doing something wrong now.

My point was not about being accepted by others.My point was your own acceptance of what is happening to you and your own understanding .Why don't you try any parapsychological associations?I sure there must be one in your country as well .it is just a prompt.

Inciska, come on. Don't get angry as nobody here wanted to laugh at you. It was the subject that you mentioned that's quite funny. See, most of us don't believe in paranormal phenomena and believe there's a rational explanation to all of them. That's why people approach it rather light-heartedly.

If you believe that paranormal exists and, moreover, you possess some abilities that cannot be explained otherwise. then why take those sceptical so seriously? You know this forum loves joking about everything. Life is usually not as jolly as our group here so understand that people take everything with a pinch of salt

I do agree that our brain's potential is not fully discovered. I believe that some people use more of it that others. We all heard about the placebo effect, self-suggestion and hypnosis. But, personally, I doubt that our ancestors hang around talking to whoever hears them.

Do reconsider leaving.

As a teenager I have been into those a lot too. I stepped aside from it, for several reasons. To sum up a long story short: Fırst I got very afraid of the dead people and wasnt able to get a simple night rest and after a while I simply stopped believing and I felt it brought me further away from 'normal life', the thing that is 'closest' to us 'normal people'. Im sure you are not like this İnçişka, but many people I know who are interested in those or claim to have such powers, have these strange spiritual lifestyles about 'how to find your innerpeace', 'how to use your energy levels to the maximum' etc. My answers to these are simple: combine things you have to with things you like, eat healthy and get enough sleep No need for these spiritual innerself kind of bullshit. It is not that this is directly linked to the abilities you speak of, but the image most people have of it, is because of people I described as above. You may call it prejudice, but of all the people I know in the spiritual world (and they are quite a lot since I was relaly into it a coupke of years ago), there is just one person who is 'normal'.
It is my very best friend, soulmate Id say whom I know since we were both just little, is very into those and is personally also very sensitive on certain subjects. He senses things and though his 'abilities' are not that developed as of some other people, he goes to them for advice and help etc. Actually it was just 2 days ago I received an email from him telling how some things had come true.

It's not that I dont believe at all. Like DD I highly doubt if theres ancestors talking to us, and believe there are quite some logical and medical reasons to many experiences. On the other hand, I know enough people who are 'sane' yet 'sensitive'. You often hear you have to be 'open' for it in order to receive such abilities or develop them. I'm open to it for others,I believe there is a possibility such a phenomenon existsi, but want to distantiate myself from it. Because I believe we don't see dead people because we are not supposed to.

I believe in miracles, guardian angles so why not people having extrodinary gifts of having visions or speaking to the dead. I guess anything is possible..

To be perfectly honest, some of my friends got together and bought me an hour with a psychic for my birthday. They know I am a very skeptical person. So here I am with this woman, who claims to be talking to my dead grandmother (I think it is a pretty safe bet that most people my age have a dead grandmother...but OK) and my grandmother, who didn't speak a word of English in her life, preceded to tell this complete stranger about all the wonderful things that will happen to me. By the end of the hour, I was beginning to realize that another hour of my life had been chipped away and wasted.....I was feeling pretty foolish and I am still waiting for all that was told to come to pass. No surprise that none of it has. I think I was most disappointed that my grandmother didn't give me the winning lottery numbers.