XLV.
I weep now.... But if your former Tanya
You have still not forgotten even now,
Then know this: the bitterness of your anger
The stern talk, the coldness of your brow,
If it should be but within my power
I would prefer it to this mean passion,
To these tears, these letters that you fashion.
For to my young dreams in that distant hour
You then at least showed some sympathy,
And some respect for my girlish years...
But now! Why here? What foolishness
Brought you here to my feet? What sordidness?
How, with the heart and the mind that you have
Do you display the soul of the meanest slave?
XLVI.
But for me, Onegin, this luxuriance,
This tinsel glare of a harsh existence,
My status in glittering society's whirl,
My modern home and evening parties,
What are they? I would renounce them all,
And all these rags of showy pretence,
This noisy sparkle, this rich incense,
For a shelf of books or a ragged garden,
For our old house, poor and humble too,
And all those places, where long ago,
Onegin, I first set my eyes on you,
And for that graveyard, quiet, retired,
Where a cross under the shade of trees and skies,
Marks where my poor old nurse now lies.
XLVII.
Yet happiness seemed so possible,
So near at hand!... But now the book
Of fate is shut. Inadmissible
Perhaps was the course I took:
My mother with her tears of entreaty
Prayed me to marry; for poor Tanya
All lots were equal and indifferent...
I married. Onegin, leave me,
You must, I ask you, and I know
Within you there are nobler feelings,
Your pride, and your honourable dealings.
I love you ( why should I deceive you?)
But I am given to another now,
And I will eternally keep my vow.
XLVIII.
She left. Yevgeny stood stock still
As if by lightning he had been struck.
And what a storm of feelings fill
His heart, his passions run amok!
But suddenly the sound of spurs:
Tatyana's husband then appears,
And my hero now, at last, dear reader,
In this sad plight (could it be worse?)
We now abandon to his fate,
For aye... till an everlasting date.
Enough we have wandered this lonely path,
Through the vasty world. We congratulate
Each other on arrival. Hooray, hooray!
'And about time too' I hear you say.
XLIX.
Whoever you are, my dearest reader,
Friend, enemy, n'importe qui,
Let me part with you equitably.
Farewell. Whatever you have sought from me
Here in this book of carefree verses:
The recollection of burly times,
Or rest from toil, or but to slake
Your thirst for life, or comedy,
Or some grammatical mistake,
God grant that within these open rhymes
For your amusement, or your dreams
Your heart, or journalistic schemes,
I hope you will find a grain or two.
With that we part. And farewell to you!
L.
Farewell you also, my stranger friend,
And you my true ideal, and pure,
And you, my lively, constant care,
My trivial work. From you I learnt
All that a poet's heart might want,
Retreat far-flung from the worlding's storms,
Sweet conversation of one's friends.
Now many, many days have flown,
Since the time when young Tatyana first,
In a misty dream with her Yevgeny
Both dimly appeared in front of me,
And the outspread distance of a story
Through the magic of a crystal ball
I scarcely could discern at all.
LI.
But those to whom in a friendly meeting
The first verses of the poem I read...
Some like the rose are fast retreating,
As Khayam long ago has said.
Without them Onegin is now pictured.
But she, the original from whom
Tatyana's features were first formed...
Ah, how our wretched fate constricts us!
Happy is he who from life's play
Steps back and drains not to the lees
The wine glass full of cheap rosé,
Who the end of the novel never sees
But puts it aside quite carelessly,
As I from Onegin part nonchalantly.
The End
For you, my friends.
Now it is better if you tell what you like to see here.I prefer to post your favourites here.
And thank you for your interest in russian poetry.
Do you remember in the begining I was asking to write your favourite native poems.I'll be happy to see them here.
And I want to ask Cyrano to help us with translation.We all appreciate his great job here.
Best regards to all.
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