being "death"..
this write up is not an attempt towards defining what the death is.. nor does it aim to advise people how to shape their perceptions of life.. this is rather just a humble scribble of one who is himself in need of advise more than every other person on the earth.. hence, do not get what follows as something worth to think about more than a minute, or to read more than once.
occasionally, when I am able to rise over my own body and look over myself and the others around me, strangely enough, I sometimes imagine myself being the subject of many actions in which poeople normally take part as objects. for instance being the “happiness†rather than someone happy, or being the “shame†instead of someone ashamed.. whatever sense, or state of being I get into, it provides me with a different view that I have never seen before, regardless of how fierce storms of emotion it creates in one’s mind. that’s why I like being “hatred†as much as being “happinessâ€, though I extremely dislike hating someone. If you were the “peace†every person or community would want you by themselves, or if you were “hostilityâ€, you would be stared at by eyes full of ill will and expelled out everywhere. hence, you would know what you were and regardless of how people consider you, their reaction against you would always be in the expected circle.. but, how about being the “deathâ€, I whispered myself last night. I personally would want to be the worst feeling in the universe, but never want to be the “deathâ€.. can’t you see how poor and miserable you would be behind your terrorizing standing. You would not be able to decide what you were by looking at what people think about you. Many would consider you as the one who steals this so-called marvellous life whereas many others such as Rumi would call the day you come to him as “şeb-i aruzâ€, the wedding night, the day of meeting with the One, most beloved to you more than anything. What is more depressing, whether you were regarded as a door to the eternal life, or end of a short life with no meaning, that is, just a life to be lived, you would not be wanted by anybody whatsoever. It is easy to understand why those considering you as the end of going nowhere would not want you, but how about the others calling you “şeb-i aruzâ€.. why would not they want you? they would not simply because they would be ashamed of a wasted life with few good deeds but full of much more arrogance, hypocrisy, ignorance, forgetfulness.. how would they be able to stand in front of the One that they would have claimed to be the most beloved one, but would have acted in a completely opposite manner. what kind of human being would be able to carry such a heavy load of unfaithfulness, unremembrance..
I would not want to be the â€deathâ€..
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