Thanks to my friend have discovered this site, please can somebody translate this long letter for me? It is very long but so important. Thank you so much. I need to send this very soon.

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I am not proud of myself. I ask you to forgive me for writing this letter/message to you. What happened to us I still don´t understand, but I never hated you. I never thought I would find out that you are married. Of course, you are a wonderful person so it was inevitable, but it should have been me that you married. It should have been me.

I hate myself. I should have contacted you, but my pride wouldn´t let me and my problems got in the way too much. My life fell apart after what happened in every way.  

I thought not talking to you was the best thing to do back then, but I lost you. 8 years since I met you. And I know they say ´you never forget your first love´, but you were much more to me than that. You were everything to me. And I hate to admit it, but you still are. I have your pictures and the book of poems I wrote in my wardrobe. I have often read them and cried. I saw us getting married, having children, I didn´t know where we would live but it didn´t matter to me.

I can´t love anyone after you. If you can teach me how to love someone else, I will try to learn. 

Did you mean what you said recently? About us being together one day? If you meant it, come now.

Think. If you love your wife, if you want to grow old with her, if you want a family with her, then stay with her and I wish you all the best. I´ve seen her picture and she looks nice, I admit. But if you feel like you want to live that life with me, then you know what to do.

Yes, I´m not proud to say this to a married man, but I have learnt that if you don´t tell someone how you feel, you lose them forever.

Why did you find me on Facebook? You said that you married this lady for a reason, but I was ready to marry you. If you ever want to be with me again it will be hard, you would have to break a heart to be with me. But if our story is over, and you have 100% moved on, tell me honestly. I need to know what´s in your heart, no jokes or lies.

Meeting you and your family was the happiest time of my life, those memories have lived with me every day since.

Me and my boyfriend live apart, we see each other once a week for coffee or cinema, there is no physical relationship, he cheated on me and we argue so much. Some days I thought we were happy, but it has been violent sometimes. I´ve tried leaving him before but he has threatened to tell my father about my mother´s problems, which will cause more problems.  I am building the strength to leave him now. Because I will never love anyone like I love you, if I have to be alone the rest of my life, let it be.

My parents might be going toto ..  in the first two weeks of September, I might come with them. But if you can´t see me then, tell me now.

Whatever you decide, just tell me the truth. Think of your life, how you can be happy. You say you´re unhappy, could you find happiness with me? Just please, talk to me, even if it´s the last time. You can contact me on this number:

Please don´t tell anyone about this message, they will think I am shameful.

Take care of yourself. ´´

sorry I can not translate this but I will say think once think twice and than again before you send this. It is very shameful first you willing to cheat on the boyfriend you have and second you asking a married man to cheat and leave his wife for a mixed up person who after 8 years has not done well with coping. I hope you take the time before you think that  2 cheating people will make a happy couple.

 First, I´m not a mixed up person and that´s extremely insulting. Who are you to know who I am? You may call me shameful, but please don´t say things like that when you don´t understand, this person got back in touch with me and told me they wish to be with me and have married a woman to get a visa to get to see me again.

We have 8 years of history and were planning marriage ourselves until something bad happened.. His family have told me he doesn´t love this woman at all, please don´t think me a bad person, and you don´t know my life or how bad my current relationship is. And I´m NOT asking anyone to cheat if you actually read it. I would never be with him whilst he´s still married. I don´t need to justify anything to anybody, if someone can translate this I´d be grateful, if not, then I will have to try myself with a dictionary. I hope I haven´t offended you.

A quick translation maybe I have some errors, hope it helps, good luck Esmeral

Why you deleted your post scalpel? 

Because you were faster than me And I didn´t want to confuse esmereldaa with two outwardly different translations.

Thank you so so much, to both armegon and scalpel for your time. I appreciate it very very much, so thank you

But possibly yours was better than mine as I translated the text at the same time talking on phone

Welcome, I corrected some grammar errors now...

First in your first letter you said do not tell anyone I wrote they will think it is shameful ...  I only reiterated this to you

Second he is a rat, to take the vows of marriage for a visa is in itself a scam I pity this poor woman/girl whom he married. She will be hurt and you are not concerned with this either. You do not seem to think this is a problem that maybe he is not getting what he wanted from her, and you are second choice. Why would a good person marry a woman to get a visa to see another woman? He is a rat and you are a rat chaser. Clearly you expressed your current boyfriend is also cheater hence a rat, but you still date him because he might tell daddy about your mom being depressed. That is as good as the dog ate my homework. Go to the police if he is violent and dump him. Now either your self-esteem is extremely low or you are just repeating history as you say your parents are not happy either. You say you are sick all the time and stressed. I think maybe your choices are causing this. You seem to be proactive with your mothers depression instead of helping her find suitable counsel to alleviate her problem. She is an adult introduce her to a therapist and let them help her so that you can help yourself make better choices. And yes I don´t know you but I know your type.

Last you say you are in contact with this guy’s family and he doesn´t love her. I thought you just said he contacted you? How can his family communicate with you if you have to have this letter written in Turkish for this guy to understand your plea for him to leave his wife for you.  Very weird indeed.

Have a good day.

How dare you say you know my type! You are a very ignorant person, it´s fine for you to sit there and judge. My mother´s depression is none of your business and she has tried counselling so don´t sit there telling me all about my life.

Nobody can ever understand anyone elses situation no matter how they listen. And yes his family contacted me, he asked them to, then he spoke. I may well be stupid, shameful, or whatever you want to call me, but you are indeed a very nasty person to say such things about my situation which you don´t even know.

I asked for a translation, not criticism of who I am, or at least who you think I am.

 I have sent you a PM with regard to some of the above comments.

People on thsi website have heard these kind of stories a million times before. I myself have lived and worked in a tourist resort and Turkey, and have seen married men juggle many women. They all say they are unhappily married, and they all never say that to their own wives ofcourse. They are not unhappily married, because they don´t take their vows very serious in general. If somebody on this website points this out to you, it doesn´t make that person ignorant. It´s not ignorant to find it weird for a person who is not single to try and find contact with somebody who is married. If you don´t want people to judge you, don´t air your dirty laundry on the internet. And if you are smart, dump your boyfriend if you are not happy with him, and find contact with your ex if he is single too. Don´t make dating you and being with his wife at the same time a good option for him. It is unfair to his wife, especially since he already says he married her for the wrong reasons. You think the wife knows he married her for a greencard? It means he´s already lying to her (or you). In general, if he is willing to cheat on one wife he is willing to cheat on the next as well.

Somebody just tried to look out for you because it is clear that you are getting yourself into a giant mess. If you don´t want that kind of advise, don´t tell about your problems in the first place.

You don´t personally know me or my life, I´m sure all of you who criticise have your own ´dirty laundry´, if I wanted advice I would write to an agony aunt website. This is ridiculous how I´m being made to feel by people who know nothing about my situation. Think what you want from the outside, I have known this person for 8 years and yes I know a lot about their tricks but not everyone is the same. You defend the comments made to me but comments about my mother etc were completely out of order and if you want to defend it, that´s shame on you.

I can´t be bothered with this anymore, think what you want. It took me strength to leave my relationship, I now have, but what do you know? Do you know who I am, my past, my life? No, as I don´t know you and I wouldn´t have the audacity to even comment on someone´s issues the way you both have. 

I am always inclined to wonder about individuals who post things on a public website and then act shocked when they get feedback.  However, while I am also inclined to agree with acute and barba´s assessment, perhaps we should leave well enough alone and not let this thread escalate out of control.

Adventure!

I don´t care much about what translation requester does or not, I was just sticking up for Acute. To call somebody ignorant, while that person seems to have a clearer view of what actually is going on is just silly. How many times have we "regulars" on this website seen very similar translation request? They always end up in about 10 further translation requests that depict a further relationship that never ends well. Usually the request stop after these 10, without the person in question ever making a real contribution to this website. If Acute wants to respond to an open message like this, he (or is it she) has every right to.

We all should stop discussing this issue. otherwise we will get nowhere. All I can say is that People has every right to ask any translation request whether you like it or not.

No one is perfect. I am not perfect ..We all make mistakes. Saying opinions are all right but not judgement for other´s lives . If you judge then you will be judged likewise.

This is the final dot of this silly discussion [ . ]

But I´ve  had things to say