according to her other post it's the "hileci" one...

bana söyledikleri budur, xxxx sana bir şey söylemem lazım, erkek arkadaşının hakkında öğrendiğim bir şey, bunu sana yalnız iyi bir insan olduğun için ve büyük kalbin olduğu için söylüyorum.

you're so different, that I wonder... if I wake up does it go away? it does, it does, this too as everything else, but does this heart want it to go away, a life without you...
my fright isn't from you or from your heart, it's from myself, from my fears, from the future...

If I leave my heart to you to your warm palms you'll hold it like that I know... but will my heart tighten? I don't know... if I hadn't loved you that much what would happen to me at this moment... If I'm scared when I reach out my hands and say yes to the night that asks "is it you", is it my fault?

Hey Trudy,
some corrections:

istemek (+?)
2. bir şey (separate the words)

istemek (-)
all of them:
istEmiyorum, istEmiyor etc.

istemek (-?)
all of them:
istEmez misin, istEmez mi etc.

söylemek (+)
9. bir şeyler (separate the words)

sevmek (-?)
5. sevmeZ miyiz (typo I guess)

Sana yakın olmak isterdim şimdi. Sen de her zaman aklımdasın.

I'm thinking about you since I woke up today. I wish you were somewhere close to me.

I'll try:
I've changed my mind, I have a month before the army, I will come for a vacation but I don't have money, send me and I'll come immediately, call me, I'm serious.

CANLI- "aramak" means "to look for", "to ask for" used as "to call"

sent you a PM

CANLI is right, it means:
I must be able to love you in every state/condition you are.