today:
temkinli- deliberate, dignified
bizzat- personally, in person

PART 31

After squashing the end of his cigarette in the ashtray, Shahid continued his talk from the point he stopped as if he hadn't taken a break at all:
- And now... my dear Fatih, I'm confessing in front of you that I couldn't help myself from being grabbed by (carried away by) the charm of "women" that I've always escaped from or tried to act in a dignified and a prudent way in front of.
"My God!" I said to myself... "Oh my God!"... He is a person of another times and places... My dear friend Shahid, has been caught in the illness of the thousand old times love adventures I had read and known in person, of the unforgetable but at the same time rare love heros: Love was a hopeless sickness... At that moment all the Mecnuns, Ferhats, Hüsrevs,Tahirs, Romeos began to march in my mind. My friend Aziz from Ordu, who sat in my row in my highschool years came to my mind. In the only girl-boy mixed class, Aziz had fallen in love with an ugly girl, who we didn't even look at her face and who I don't even remember her name... He was a handsome young man, like a lion. He was a boxer. He was one of the ace (champion) members of school's volleyball and basketball teams. He was an Orhan Gencebay fan. We believed that he could read his "Give me a consolation" better than our brother Orhan.

I think:
Mutluluğun sırrı özgürlüktür,
özgürlüğün sırrı cesarettir

Yes, sometime I struggle with sentence structure too. Let's work on the next part and let metehan correct us

different doesn't mean wrong rena, in fact I liked some of yours better than mine

for you deli:
"Ne yapalım biz yiyemiyoruz bari ağzımızın suyu aksın"
What should we do, we are not able to eat so at least let our mouths become watery (or more literally: let the water flow from our mouths)

I'm ready that my years run out all alone but
I can't love anyone else(instead of you)

30. PARÇA

- My dear Fatih, we don't know each other for long; but among the people I have met till today I believe that you are the one who understands me best." he said and then kept quiet for a while as if he was trying to arrange his thoughts. After he lit the cigarette he took out of the Davidoff pack he continued:
- As you know, my point of view about women is quite different from what might be expected... I don't know... Maybe a little traditional... I couldn't in any way assimilate the modern way of looking at a woman just from the physical aspect. My situation in America wasn't very different. You wouldn't believe, but all the women I met behaved with a practical, utilitarian and a physical approach. That's why I have always avoided them. I have remained in a distance from them. I have found a refuge in the solitude of my own world that I founded on aesthetical values. I preferred that loneliness over togetherness based on those temporary, physical pleasures. And now...
Shahid didn't complete his words. He stopped and watched thoughtfully the falling of the snow outside. It was as if I could feel the direction of his talk. But a voice inside me said that it would be more appropriate to let the situation to it's natural course. I lit a Davidoff too, began to watch the people walking by at the street and remained silent.

"sen bitanesin ya, oldu canim orasi olur ozaman"-
you are unique, fine my dear, let it be at that place then

Welcome back rena, I'll translate without reading yours and then we can compare:

PART 29

I was almost beginning to regret that we haven't chosen another place to meet, when Shahid began to talk:
- My dear Fatih! You are more realistic and more practical than me. You know that I have always respected your opinions and evaluations. That's why I wished to meet with you tonight and talk to you about a rather personal and important issue, that is bothering me for a long time.
It seemed that the situation was more serious than I thought! It was a little scary to be at the place of someone whose advice was looked for in an important matter. The additions loaded on the necessary responsibilities have always made me a little uneasy. But the person in front of me was my friend Shahid. I had to help him as much as I could... Even if it scared me... I said:
- What's the matter Shahid? Since the end of the lessons I've been in a worry. You dropped a little hint but the rest of it didn't come. And I didn't want to insist and distress you. I hope there isn't a situation to be scared of?"
Shahid's face turned a little pinkish... After hesitating for a while he answered: