Yes, but.. not to hurt anyone up here.. but how can love be love if you are not sure? When you start a romance-affair with a holidayresort-man.. do you love that guy? Or do you love being loved? Because if that's so, ofcourse the waiting is hard. It's easy to love over distance. But it's quite difficult to show and to feel the other's love over it. So if you are not totally sure, the waiting gets too hard.
I quote Shakespeare:
"Love is not love as it alters when it alteration finds"
(im not sure if this is literally, but it comes VERY close )
Maybe I'm just being overromantic, I don't know
But believe me.. i know the distance by now.. I cried too many nights in my cold lonely bed, i skipped too many classes at school because i lost the point in it, i spent hours and hours laying on my bedroom floor, staring at the sky, remembering all the things that we came across together. And now I'm looking at hte calender, seeing that it's almost two years ago we met.. and i cry for all the things we haven't done yet. But i smile for all that is laying ahead of you.
If you learn to control the distance, distance-love that ends like mine, is probably better than an around-the-corner-love. For the simple fact we have another dimension in our relationship: we learnt to talk. we learnt to use words. we don't speak eachothers bodylanguage yet, but at least we know what we mean when we just talk. Many 'normal' relationships end, because people became unable to speak.
Kadir and i built love upon many words. Made love with many words. We can talk. We cannot date like normal couples. I never had a clothing-crisis, because he has never come to pick me up for dinner. I never went to school with the excited feeling of going out for a dance with him tonight. But one day i will
If i look back so far (how dramatic does that sound ), i remember all the fun moments on the phone, the sweet sms and the nice loooong conversations on msn better and more, than the nights spend alone.
Well, at least i wish everybody luck with his/her long distance love.
It's most of all a matter of having faith in yourself, not only in the other. When you live together, 'I and YOU' becomes 'US and WE'. If you live apart, 'US and WE is still I and YOU'. So you need to have faith in yourself as well!!
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