My Try:

Yes, at least you got what you wanted. But I couldn´t even pass close to her. You know, that is the difference. Do you think it is fair? I am not talking about five years, if I could have just embraced her for one night I would have given anything. I wish she would know this also. Maybe you in exchange for what you got could tell this to her. Some time. In a way everyone is happy but me. It is not my aim to offend anyone, just to be happy a little bit. Because I have no power to endure this any more.

I can´t imagine what you mean. It has a concrete meaning of course, like Neyin var? ´What are you hiding there in your pocket?´.

Or maybe if someone is crying (or laughing) hysterically you should ask her this question.

For serious learners, TC is a master class.

They are different ways of being quiet, from Atasözleri ve Deyimler Sözlüğü. I am trying to master them.

ağız dil vermemek, ağzına kilit takmak (vurmak), ağzına taş almak, ağzını kapamak (kilitlemek), ağzını mühürlemek, (birinin) sesi çıkmamak (kesilmek), dili durmak, dilini kesmek, dut yemiş bülbüle dönmek, gelinlik etmek, lakırtıyı kesmek, sakit kalmak, sesini kesmek, sözü kesmek, suspus olmak

I knew you would like it.

Lasse Rantanen, Helsingin Sanomat, December 18, 2011.

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Yes. Did you mean something more specific?

Neyin var?